Well, naturally I felt much better after dinner with K, who always helps me put things in perspective. So what if he’s somewhat closed off. I know he cares about me, there’s no question about that. Her advice was that if I can handle him not sharing everything with me, if I’m happy being with him, then all I can do is give everything I have, give all I can, and that way if in the end things don’t work out, I won’t have any regrets. I’ll have done the best I know how. So yeah. That’s the plan. He and I had a long talk that night, which also made me feel better. Overall I am ridiculously happy, giddy even, which I know will wear off eventually, the silly, excited to have even found him (or excited for K to have found him, actually, haha) feeling. It’s just that every now and then I freak out: maybe I’ve let him get too close. DUH. Of course I have, but there’s no turning back now. I am such a scaredy-cat.
I’ve been sitting on hold with Dell for a few minutes now, and the song is SO familiar, but I can’t place it. Don’t you just hate that? Oh well, it’s gone now.
I had rehearsal till almost 10:00 last night (which was great since it was supposed to go till 10:30–I am so old), and I am surprisingly in a good mood at work today despite wanting to kill myself at the thought of coming in today as I drove home last night. That sentence was confusing, but you get it. Too lazy to go back and re-word it.
Last night I bought 8 million tickets to my show. Hey, Curly E, did I tell you about my show? I can’t remember. You are welcome to come if you want, but it’s kind of expensive, and I’m only in 2 songs. Whee.
I got some stuff in the mail yesterday that I bought from the awesome Diesel at her etsy shop. Very cute. I wore my black star beanie to rehearsal last night and enjoyed it thoroughly. Thanks, D! Awesome.
I have a ridiculous amount of work to do. I never seem to diminish the pile by very much because I don’t work as hard as I should. Tricky. I’m going to try today, though. I’m in one of those moods. The clutter, the pile-up is starting to get to me. Ooh, damn, I’ve really gotta get back to work. I wish this entry was more worthwhile. Quick, think of something amusing! Nope, not gonna happen.
I want it to be 80 degrees and to lay out by the pool. Jobs are for sissies.
March 21st, 2006 at 11:53 am
I do want to go! I still have your email around here somewhere…April 15th, right? You should find me a date, cause if it worked for you, maybe it can work for me too. Haha!
March 21st, 2006 at 1:28 pm
ooh, a date! hey, i should call amy and tell her about it, too. you know, this is going to be really funny if all these people come see this show and it totally sucks. uhhh…tricky. but hey, you know, whatever. lol.
March 24th, 2006 at 9:05 am
L O V E the pics! Well, actually, the tongue one scared me a little, but otherwise they are great pics!
March 24th, 2006 at 12:14 pm
yeaaaaaaah, i kinda thought that, too, like hey, i wonder if this is too much…yeah, it’s kinda too much, but it’s also FUNNY. but i could be wrong. maybe it’s only funny to me. lol. agh! =)