still truckin’ along…

tonight after work C and i are driving to his parents’ house about 3 and half hours away.  then tomorrow morning the 4 of us leave for New Mexico. 

the agenda is:

–golf (C & his dad)

–pool (me and anyone who wants to join me)

–tennis (C & me)

–horse races (all)

–more golf (C & dad)

–pretty mountains and nice weather

that’s about it.  oh wait, one more:

–buy lots of turquoise jewelry

yep, that’s about it.

i can’t believe how rarely i write these days.  i’m ashamed of myself.  it would really be beneficial to me if i would put things down from time to time.  i.e., i have crazy-person problems, because i am crazy.  these things are probably things i should write about so that i could possibly consider working through them and not being a crazy person, at least not to this extent.  just a thought.  =)

you can sort of pinpoint WHY you have certain deep-seated issues, like oh, my dad said THIS and was really hard on me when i was a child, i was abused by my cousin, my mother smothered me and still does, my parents never stopped fighting when i was growing up…and so on, but can you ever REALLY get to the bottom of it?  i hate that my stupid past affects me in my relationship (makes me insecure).  i’m a grown-up, i have plenty of good qualities and accomplishments to be proud of, and i have some truly great friends who love me dearly–i have nothing to be ashamed of.  and yet somehow all that stupid crap from the past never completely dissolves.  i really need to see a counselor/therapist/shrink/etc.  i wonder if my student insurance will support that at all.  something to look into.

things are going well, though.  2 days of vacation now, and then on the 19th we’re going to Florida, just the two of us.  YAY.  i’m really excited.  we found a nice, 2 bedroom condo very close to the beach for only $120/night.  the late summer season is a lot cheaper, so that worked out well.  our flights were kind of high, but not the end of the world. 

i’m getting ready to buy a laptop!  yay!  i will be getting the new Macbook, my first Mac ever.  of course the Apple was the first computer i ever used at the “Gifted and Talented” school when i was in third grade.  we learned how to make designs using degrees–in the Logo program–the turtle?  does this ring a bell with anyone?  anyway, i have really come to appreciate the Mac, and i’m getting excited about owning one.  it’s like its own little cult.  the apple cult.  they might convert me, i swear. 

i plan to buy it in the next 2 weeks, after i get confirmation on my student aid for school.  i find out this week or next whether i’m accepted into the Masters program for Elementary Education (say a prayer–i need this money, because otherwise i’m not sure how i’m going to pay my tuition…).  my GRE scores aren’t very good, so i’m hoping they’ll take into account my GPA from undergrad and my SAT scores.  i’m sure it’ll work out. 

let’s see…oh, next thursday i’m taking off the day from work to spend it with my bestest gal, K.  i’m going to see her new apartment, we’ll have lunch, and then we’re going to see Brooklyn the musical at Dallas Summer Musicals.  i got really good seats for only $19 each!  some girl from American Idol is playing the lead, so i’m a little wary about that, but whatever.  it’ll still be fun.  then K and i are planning to work up an arrangement of the national anthem to audition to sing at the Mavericks games.  not really sure, but the old arrangements we created in high school were pretty damned good, so i can only think now will be even better. 

so yeah.  that’s my life in a nutshell. 

i can’t believe it’s been a year since we moved back to texas from new york.  unbelievable.  what a year, really.  but i sure do miss it sometimes…

love to you!