seriously, i’m still here.

well good lord. i don’t even know how long it’s been, but it has been LONG.

this grad school thing is a beyotch. i feel like i don’t even have time to breathe. god, i can’t stop sneezing these days. gettin’ on my nerves. but yeah, things are pretty hectic. it’s not that it’s rocket science, i know education can’t be anywhere near as difficult as law school or med school. so i’m not trying to say it’s extremely hard work, it’s just that there’s too much of it. at least with 12 hours and working 20 hours a week. or 23 hours if you’re me, and the crazy fuckhead that my job hired to replace you just decided to stop showing up a week ago, and now you have to clean up the mess he left behind, since now that he’s gone you see that there is, indeed, a huge mess to wade through. who are these people, and where do they come from, i wonder. the guy was anal retentive about his desk looking perfect and neat all the time, but he had left an old bowl of oatmeal sitting on the narrow ledge underneath his desk. WHAT THE FUCK, man?! not only that, but apparently sometime mid-August he just decided to stop working. that’s the only thing i can come up with, since i continue to find things that he was asked to do that just never got done. packages that never got mailed, faxes that never got sent, people who never got called, orders that never got forwarded. not to mention that he clearly never filed one thing the entire 2 and a half months he was there. i hate people. especially him, but also others, at times. anyway, there’s that schpiel.

tomorrow morning i’m going back to my sister’s school to volunteer. something about watching them while she takes out a few to give them assessments or something. they’re really cute, but they are extremely…5 years old. it’s tricky keeping tabs on them at all times. they don’t know how to tie their shoes, and they don’t know if they brought lunch money. they don’t if they did their homework last night, and sometimes they don’t even know their names. it’s amusing and exasperating, all at once. well, more amusing to me and exasperating to my sister, but still. at least one of us gets a chuckle.

yesterday her school was put on lock down because some guy robbed the bank down the street and then threatened to blow up the school. it turned out ok, though i don’t think they ever caught the guy. i was pretty worried when i heard it on the radio. but everyone’s ok.

one thing i have found completely irritating about my classes is the men. no offense to men, but what the hell? every single one of my four classes has at LEAST one man in it who is completely obnoxious in one way or another. if nothing else, i am learning patience. but seriously: they drive me NUTS. i don’t know how the professors deal with it, to be honest, because obviously a lot of the men who go into teaching are obnoxious. if you are a non-obnoxious male teacher, i salute you. and thank you for not making me want to stick the chalk in my eyeball rather than listen to your egocentric, self-obsessed, endless blathering. but yes, the men are making me crazy. i’ve never seen anything like it. maybe it’s because they’re generally outnumbered by the women in these classes, and they can’t stand not feeling like they’re in control. or maybe they’re just incredibly insecure and feel the need to try to cover it up by talking about how smart they are all the time. i dunno. i don’t really care what it is. i just want them to stop. but of course, they won’t. at least the one on thursdays isn’t quite as bad as the others, so tomorrow won’t be too much of a whip.

i got a shitload of what i like to call “teacher clothes” tonight at Sears, because they had dress jackets and blouses on sale for like, $3.99 and $5.99. some of the jackets were $19.99, but still. that’s damn cheap. so i’m stocking up on teacher clothes since i have to student teach in the spring, and i mostly wear t-shirts and jeans in my real life. (cuz you know, teaching isn’t my real life.) yay cheap dress clothes!

i really should get back to my reading. it is endless. it really is interesting, but i’m starting to lose my farsighted vision from staring at books close up all freaking day. sigh. at least after tomorrow i’ll have a few days to catch up.

october 9th i’m taking this big test that i have to pass as part of my certification requirements, and not only that, but it cost $82.00. and i’ve only made it through about 1/4 of the study guide, and i really haven’t the time to read any of it because i’m too dadgum busy trying to read for my 4 classes.

then my student teaching application is due october 13th, and i haven’t even heard back from the dumb school district so that i can go observe some schools to decide which one i want to go to. geez, people. don’t they know they’re holding up my life here?

i really enjoy talking and/or writing about myself. i should do this more often. and i should really complain about work on here instead of to my boyfriend, my mom, and any friend who will listen. i know they all must get tired of hearing me complain, and i hate to be the complainer, but if you’ve ever had that one co-worker or supervisor who just really makes you hate life, then you know that it’s very hard NOT to talk about it.

anyway, i’m planning the company christmas party, and after that, i should be all clear! so only a few months left, really. praise god.

ok, off to read things about “developmentally appropriate curriculum.” goody.

love!