mark mcgrath is the less-talented, less-attractive version of ethan hawke. they have that same scruffy, i’m not trying too hard (although yet again, ethan wins on that count, because he is clearly not usually trying at all) look about them. good call becoming an entertainment t.v. talk show host, mark mcgrath, because buddy, no one ever wants to hear your band again. EVER.
sometimes the truth is harsh, people.
planning to go wedding dress shopping wednesday, though one place i was planning to go is going to be closed (found out today when i finally decided to grace them w/a phone call from yours truly, here). hoping the other places will be open.
on a side note, i am positive that i would be a much more enjoyable person to be around, and a much happier soul altogether, if i did not have to work every day. not having to work ANY day would be ideal, but if i could just work part-time, say 3 days instead of 5, even that would be a big improvement for me. now…what job can i do in 3 days a week and still make the same amount of money? is it just me or should i just jump off the bridge now and save myself the trouble? why does working suck so bad? (i know it should be ‘badly,’ but you just can’t in good conscience put the words ’suck’ and ‘badly’ next to one another in a sentence–all wrong.)
i have been sick for over 9 days now, and i cannot stop coughing and blowing my nose. shoot me.
people who get to go to hawaii for thanksgiving break make me mad. people who are shopping for a 2nd house in island countries such as Costa Rica and Panama also make me mad. frankly, anyone who has more than me makes me mad. is that valid? i’m real whiny tonight. wedding planning makes me angry that i don’t have more money.
i should stop.
this has been one of the worst weeks i’ve had teaching so far. bad bad bad. how can kids be so cute and sweet and yet so fucking annoying at the same time? it’s a feat, i tell you. it’s possible i should never have children.
so yeah, yay we found a place/date for the wedding, and yay his sister’s gonna be in it, and yay we booked a photographer. i have yet to formally ask anyone because i’m trying to gather some “goodies” to ask mah girls. =) should be fun.
i’m tired of wedding talk. it’s wedding central around here.
i’m not in the best mood for writing tonight. i need me some weekend.
have you ever watched it’s always sunny in philadelphia? it can be funny.
well, i will say that i love this thing they call “DVR.” i still call it “Tivo,” kind of how some people call every brand of soda, “Coke.” so god bless tivo.
it seems as if we may have found a wedding venue, and a cheap one at that. how bad of an idea is it to have an outdoor wedding toward the end of june? we really want it to be outdoors, and i’ve always said i’d have the wedding i want, not the wedding other people want me to have or think i should have, but now i’m like, well crap, what if everyone hates us because it’s hot or something? i hate second guessing myself. it really isn’t possible for this day to be perfect–not when you’re on a budget, at least.
it was a long day. a long, long day. i am writing on my laptop–my laptop that crashed last week and now has a brand new, very empty hard drive. i think i’m still in shock, but yes–all my files and photos and everything are gone. not so good.
did i mention it was a long day? a long week, too. i kind of hate my job sometimes. ok, more than sometimes, kind of. it’s too stressful. i don’t handle stress very well. i think i might need some xanax. who knew 8 and 9 year olds could be so distressing?
how could it be that the wedding planning has just begun and already i wish the damn wedding was over? this is clearly not going to be as much fun as i anticipated.
man, i’m a downer tonight. i want to marry C, i just don’t want to plan the wedding. it’s times like these when having a lot of extra money to throw around would come in really handy.
engaged for a month, and already it starts. i haven’t even ASKED any of my bridesmaids officially to be my bridesmaids yet. yes, 2 of them know for sure because he have talked about the fact that they would be in my wedding for years now, so it’s just a given. and i’m planning to ask my sister. apparently i threw out some kind of comment to this effect at the wedding we went to last weekend, and now his sister is apparently crushed that she’s not in the wedding. my thoughts were first off that i just hadn’t thought of that yet. second, we haven’t even found a PLACE or set a DATE yet. i haven’t even ASKED anyone yet. first things freaking first, people. this to me is just upsetting. the fact that i have barely even begun the planning process and already i’ve hurt someone’s feelings. this is clearly going to be the first of many times.
our tentative guest list count is already up to 311, and that doesn’t even include many of my friends that are not best friends, but friends i would like to invite, nonetheless. AND i’m only inviting the other 3 third grade teachers and my 2 bosses, NONE of the other teachers in the whole school. how can i when his family has a list of 180 people already? supposedly not many of them are going to actually COME (they live about 4 hours away), but still–what if they DO? then what will we do? i’m afraid to book a place assuming we’re only going to have 200 guests for fear we’ll end up with more “yes” replies than we’re anticipating. i simply cannot afford to feed and booze that many people, much as i’d like to.
shoot me.
really.
clearly i can do nothing right. and hopefully my future sister-in-law is not going to hold this against me for the rest of my life. sigh.
so we went to a wedding last night. let me just put it this way: after the newlyweds exited, newly pronounced “husband and wife,” the minister asked the guests to put the program from the wedding in their homes where they would see it daily and remember to pray for the couple for the next month as they begin their marriage. Hmm…ok. I can handle that. He THEN proceeded to remind us that “Sadly, 50% of all marriages end in divorce, and this is because the devil hates love.” Ahem. Wow. I about fell out, my mouth dropped open, and so on.
Needless to say, our wedding will have no sermon, no talk of the “devil,” and FOR GOD’S SAKE, no talk of DIVORCE.
that’s all i have to say right now, and i have to go pick up my lunch from WingStop. perhaps there will be more to follow later.
=)
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